Purple Haze

Don't know if I'm comin up or down.

Definitely Negative

After many hours of of dedication towards this topic. I've made some decisions.

Love is a disease when people do not act responsibly, do not contribute to society, and become the biggest wastes of space to ever roam the earth.

Normally, when people commit injustices toward each other, they have to aknowledge it in some way and maybe even apologize for it. At least society would view an apology as favorable.

But when people commit crimes in the name of love, like adultery, abandonment, irresponsibility, neglect, the list goes on, because they're just SOOOOO IN LOVE, nobody blames them to the same degree. They somehow get off the hook for cheating on their spouse, leaving their kids, shirking their duties, ignoring their friends. Well I'm sorry but a wrongdoing is wrong and irreversible, love is a disease.

I'm with you Shakespeare, and I'm very sorry you may have contracted syphilis, or some other known venereal disease.

Mix and Match

The most common phrase being uttered at me while growing up was: "Use your head."

From failing math problem sets to squirting and consequently breaking the TV with a water filled rubber glove that to my dismay had a hole in it, I was repeatedly told to "use my head."

Now that I'm older, using my head is something that goes without saying. But like I always believe, there is a danger to excessively doing something that is even seemingly positive. What if I'm guilty of using my head too much?

In my spare time, also dubbed time I should spend doing work at work, I have taken to reading materials on buddhism and taoism. And by materials, I am mostly referring to wikipedia. Gimme a break, I can't get into complicated religious texts if I have to do work, it's more like mini breaks to prevent my brain from excel overload. Anyway, the idea of wu wei in taoism is confusing, almost like a self defeating concept. If wu wei literally means non-action, then why doesn't everyone just drop what they're doing and wait for life to happen. Like everything else, I decided this needs a closer inspection. While I haven't had the time to get the real answer from deep philosophical books, confounded by the sad reality that I may have forgotten how to read, I came to a realization of my very own. It may be something as simple as silencing the mind, a deceivingly easy task. In order to understand the Way, find inner peace, achieve nirvana, whatever mumbo jumbo, we have to find a way to make life stop, step out, and observe. Most of the time, we're too caught up, in ourselves, in someone else, in our jobs, in our worries. It's like being that objective bystander, but even in situations involving yourself. I wonder if that would feel literally like an out of body experience. I'll let you know if I ever get there.

Wu wei has very little to do with the kind of action we would normally associate action with. It's active in that there is definite effort involved, but again effort here doesn't mean the kind of effort we normally apply. In fact if you haven't underst00d what I've been saying, it's probably not even explainable in human terms. All I know is that words and common truths are man made, man made strays farther from nature every minute. There is a direction in life, but it's not lucid because we're using the wrong map. Does that make sense? Did I just ask if my blog entry makes sense?

It is important to slow down life, because life as we know it is actually chaos.

PS. I hold strong resentment towards people who claim to be buddhist, taoist, or any religion for that matter because they've done their reading. In order to declare yourself religious, you'd have to be actively practicing. Otherwise you're just another reason for why people are so cynical about religion. Debating theology in my opinion is almost always the biggest waste of time, because it's always open to misinterpretation, humans arguing human made terms. I'm not actively practicing any religion in particular, but I like to mix and match.

The Ladder Theory

So as it turns out, the author of the ladder theory has thoughts on religion, marriage, and feminism as well.

http://www.laddertheory.com/

actually spawns from

http://www.intellectualwhores.com/

Don't Fall For your Brain...or your heart.

No one is reliable, not even, especially not your own anatomy.

"Just because you can't say something doesn't mean you don't want to, you can want to very much. You can be with a person and be happy with them and not love them. And you can love somebody and not want to be with them. You don't need to love someone to want them. Now that's frustrating, when what your brain tells you you want and what you actually want don't match up. It’s exhausting. And, well, it’s complicated. But that's life. And life... sucks."

I disagree, life doesn't suck, it just has an odd sense of humor. And let's face it, these days, any humor is better than no humor. Like how you are probably getting a kick out of my incessantly quoting Grey's Anatomy. My brain tells me the show is probably headed for suckage, but it's so suckingly good.

PS. I have come to the conclusion that nobody has any grasp over the meaning of the word love, so people should stop throwing it around like it has any significance. I hope in this lifetime (and the next) I will not find myself pathetically slobbering that word on a poor defenseless human being. It is perhaps the most meaningless word in the english language. And NO, this isn't the rantings of an embittered single person (that's for Valentine's day), I am telling it like it is. From now on, I will tune out that word, like it was never invented.

AND NO, I'm not bitter. AND YES, you will agree with me.